Thursday, September 8, 2011

r.i.p. saturday, 1997-2011

saturday died in my arms last night. yesterday i had a feeling it would be that day. i just had a feeling. i have never watched something die before. he wouldn’t eat or drink and just wanted to snuggle, and as soon as he stopped breathing, his teeth clenched and his entire body went stiff. i was really confused and am really fucking sad. he had a nice last day, though. after i came home from the darkroom my dad and i gave him a warm bath in the backyard while he nibbled on apples. then i wrapped him up in a little towel burrito and we walked all around the neighborhood and it sounds stupid but i just showed him all these flowers, because i thought maybe he, in his lil rabbit brain, would think they were really pretty or something. i think he did. and i talked to him a lot yesterday, more than usual. told him about when i first met him, told him about a bunch of nice times we’d had together in case he’d forgotten in his old age. i sound retarded being this sentimental about a rabbit but honestly he was one of my best friends. and when someone or something is there almost your whole life, whether it’s a person, or an animal, or even something dumb like a table or a blanket, you feel it when it leaves. i suppose it was time. but it doesn’t make it easier. he has been there almost my whole life. (14 years! he was insane) it’s crazy. fuck. loved that little buddy. so fucking much.

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  1. What you did and how you handled him preparing to die is not stupid or retarded--it's beautiful. Whether we're humans or animals, we are all scared to die because we don't have a clue where we're going. Offering comfort, love, and reassurance (of what the other being means to us) is the best that we can do. And I suspect, it's all that is needed from us.

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  2. beautiful tribute to your friend. heartbreaking.

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  3. philographica said it best. saturday sounds like a good friend.

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  4. this is the sweetest journal entry i've ever read of a pet passing away. you're not being stupid or anything like that, you're being awesome. i bet saturday had the best last day! also, holy crap how old he was! ps. the photos are beautiful.

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  5. you just made me cry. after reading this, i really want to have an own rabbit. oh gosh

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  6. i'm so so so so so sorry he died, but i'm sure he was loved and had a great life.
    oh and of course you don't have to be sorry for being sad about that, you don't sound retarded at all.
    i just cried reading your entry and looking at those pictures...

    i really hope you're okay. xxx

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss. I have a bunny of my own and I know how much they love and can be loved. Your post was so touching and sweet. I hope you feel better soon.

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  8. this is beautiful. it almost made me cry. I'm sorry.

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  9. You're so sweet, and Saturday was beautiful. I'm glad you got to spend so much time with each other.

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  10. This is a beautiful homage to him, i'm sorry for your loss.

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  11. oh poor him. this is so sad. but that is life, unfortunately.
    you made an awesome graveyard for the rabbit, aplaus. <3 I think he loves it.

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  12. Rest in peace, Saturday. You loved well and were well loved in return. Life is really just that simple.

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  13. :( i'm so sorry.
    my dog died a couple of months ago and we had her for 12 years. it's just so strange because i can't even remember life without her around. I was 6 when we got her. my first memories always involve her.

    i don't know if you know it, but saturday's got over a 1000 notes on tumblr. everyone's with you here. hang on!

    http://pruie.tumblr.com/post/10082449599/via-olivia-bee-r-i-p-saturday-1997-2011

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  14. This is beautiful. I have two pet rats and I only hope I can honor their life (when they die) the way you have honored your rabbit's life. His last day sounded awesome, and you're a marvelous pet owner for doing those things for him.

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  15. this is so touching and reminded me of when my dog died. i handled it similarly to you. i think his final days were his best

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  16. I am so so sorry for your loss. You are NOT crazy for loving that bunny and being sad that he's gone. Animals play a much larger role in our life than we think sometimes. When you make a connection with someone or something there is nothing that can break it. I have that with my kitty Scotty. I love him more than I thought I was capable of and he's older and it scares me. Not to mention he has heart problems. Anyway, we should all be thankful if we get the opportunity to have something so special in our lives. Love is forever.

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  17. that's so beautiful, i'm sorry for your loss. you are not silly at all, there should be more people out there who honour an animal's life as much as you did. x

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  18. my rabbit sophy died this year and i was devastated. she was shaking and shaking before it happened and i just cuddled her in a blanket until she eventually stopped and slipped away. saturday sounded like a gorgeous bunny.

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  19. I'm so sorry for your loss. I have had my dog, Bert, since I was 4 years old. I found him on the side of the road in the snow when he was 2 weeks old. He is my very best friend. For the past couple years he has been having health problems and every has come very close to death and few times and each time I always cry like a baby and tell him how much he means to me. Talking to your bunny isn't stupid, it just shows that you really did love him, and he wasn't just a pet, but a friend.

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  20. completely crying like a baby reading this.
    I don't think you are being silly at all either. this was really beautiful.

    R.I.P Saturday ♥

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  21. i'm so sorry for your loss. you're not being silly at all - i can't even imagine how i'm going to feel when i lose my bunny friend. it sounds like you gave him a wonderful last day and he must have died very happy, all cuddled and clean and warm with all pretty thoughts in his head. you wrote this out beautifully. it brought tears to my eyes. saturday was lucky to have you. <3

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  22. Just saw this on Tumblr, you are getting a lot of love. I'm sorry for your loss and he was a beautiful boy x

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  23. I'm so sorry for your loss. Reading this was nice to know there is someone else out there like me. I just lost my guinea pig Chuck in June. I had him for five years. He was my very first pet at the age of thirteen. All I ever wanted was an animal. Any kind of animal, it didn't matter a bit to me. My mom has always been allergic to everything, so I never got what I wanted until someone needed to take home the class guinea pig for the summer. Chuck was an exception because he would only be staying with us for three months, but I fell in love. I had to email my teacher saying there was no way I could ever give him back and I promised I'd buy her class a new one. For five years he was the most loved little guinea pig. He was absolutely my best friend. He died in my arms, slowly. My whole family and I all just sat on the floor sobbing at 3am. Upon burying him in my backyard, my whole family, and my boyfriend and I (both at the age of 18 now) all cried nonstop. It's amazing how such a little animal can make such a huge impact on people. I know exactly what you're going through right now. It gets better. I now have two precious new guinea pigs and so far, they have brought so much joy to my life. But, I will never forget Chuck. Pictures of him and I still decorate our house and he will always be my first pet.

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  24. I don't think you could have handled his death any better. :) He may not have understood what you were doing but you made him feel at ease on his last day and that probably made it so much easier on him.

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  25. Brought tears to my eyes. I'm sorry for your loss, may Saturday rest in peace. x

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  26. I saw this on tumblr and I had to find the OP, I am so sorry for your loss. 14 is quite old for a rabbit and I bet he lived a very full life of love and joy. I am so happy for all you had with your bunny. Take care OP, from one bunny lover to another.

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  27. I'm really sorry about your rabbit. I understand what it feels like and it's not silly at all. I think it was sweet that you took him around to see everything. I think animals have great value- and everything has its value- blankets, pencil sharpeners (bad examples) but you get the idea. And I'm glad to see you have all of this support. It's weird, yesterday there was this helpless little frog on the side of the road- tummy up. I touched him and he was bleeding- then I started crying. That may sound really silly. I went to this girl- and I hope I saved him- I tucked him under dirt so he can heal. Her brother told me it was basically pathetic to cry about it. Maybe it is. But I know you're not pathetic, or silly or anything for being upset about the rabbit. I saw this on tumblr too. We all feel you. At least, most of us do and that's what counts. I hope you feel better- and I hope everything goes well. Maybe you'll get another rabbit... not as a replacement- but you are a wonderful pet owner- and I think a rabbit should be glad to have you as an owner. Maybe Sunday. I think you remind me of the Little Prince. And also, I think you are wonderful for being sensitive, it reminds me of this "If you have men who will exclude any of God's creatures from the shelter of compassion and pity, you will have men who will deal likewise with their fellow men. "
    Francis of Assisi
    Rest in peace Saturday. X. Love from, Alisha.

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  28. I cried reading this. He's gorgeous, and was so lucky to have someone like you care so much for him for such an impressive length of time.

    You shouldn't feel silly at all for caring so much about your bunny, I wish more people cared so much for theirs. Mine is three years old, he's absolutely gorgeous and I refer to him as 'my baby', I love him to pieces and hope he goes on to live as long as yours did and dread the day when I'll have to say goodbye to him.

    You are the sweetest, I hope you know that. xxxx

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  29. Thank you so, so much for posting this. I saw it on tumblr & started crying from the beginning. I miss my bunny so much - she died in my mama's arms last year because I couldn't be with them. She was the best thing that ever, ever happened to me, and oh, I am so glad you told Saturday how good he was for you, too.

    x
    a stranger in Rhode Island.

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  30. Two years ago, I lost my rabbit too. She was 13 years old, and I had her since kindergarten. We had such an incredible bond, and I'd grown up with her. Our family loved her more than anything. When she died, my father fell to the ground at the foot of my bed and sobbed, when I thought he was incapable of ever crying. No one else in my life really understood why I was sad, why a rabbit meant so much to me. But she was a member of my family. we carried her to hurricane evacuations, took her to a rabbit specialist, and grew parsley in our garden just for her. I still cry, not often, but it happens. She was such a wonderful part of my life, and I'm so glad that Saturday was a part of yours for so long.

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  31. this is so touching, sorry for your loss :( the way you honor him is beautiful, he's a handsome bunny. I have a rabbit as well, so I know exactly what you mean with everything you say. xo

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  32. I lost a Guinea pig. His name was Tyrel and he was the most amazing creature I have ever had the privilege of knowing. I miss him so much. I understand and I'm sorry for your loss.

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  33. Hey girl :) I know it hurts to have someone so dear to you leave you, especially when it has been with you for 14 years of your life but no matter what, you should be glad that you were with him every step of the way as he got nearer and nearer to the end ya? :) he must have felt very scared, not knowing what was happening to him but you did everything you could to make him feel better and that's really what's most important! :) now that things have probably sinked in, just remember that no matter what happens, Saturday will be somewhere out there, looking down on you and hoping for the very best for someone who had made his life so amazing just like how he made yours too! :) cheer up and continue with your life, always being thankful that you met someone as amazing as Saturday and maybe channel your love for this wonderful bunny to the people or animals around you! :) put that smile of yours back on girl! Cos that's what Saturday wants to see ;)

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  34. I had my cat of almost 18 years die almost exactly a year ago, I'm only 19 so I understand and this is just so perfect it explains everything in ways I couldn't to people. Animals sometimes are better friends than people they really are part of your family. I really hope it gets easier for you faster than it did for me. Just remember the good in them and stay far away from the rainbow bridge poem.

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  35. I'm crying now. This hits so incredibly close to home for me. I have a cat and rabbit that have been with me for most of my life. Both had a near-death experience. I am so lucky i haven't lost them yet.

    Hearing that you talked to him a lot and took for walks around the neighborhood is wonderful because I talk to my pets all the time. Honestly, sometimes they're the only friends I have. They'll always be there.

    I know when they come to pass, a piece of me is going to pass with them. I'm dreading it. It will be like losing a friend or a child. You don't understand how incredibly sorry I am that he passed. I watched a cat of mine die and it happened in the same way.

    Just remember he'll always be there with you. Saturday's spirit will be on your shoulder.

    I'm so sorry. I feel such pain for you and dread for me in the future. I can understand what it feels like when parents say their worst fear is dying before their children. I don't know if I'll recover when mine do.

    I wish you the best and you and Saturday are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  36. I saw this on tumblr and it made me sob. I used to have a rabbit when I was younger, and I didn't get to have the last day, or really, relationship with him that you had with your rabbit. My mom found him dead in his hutch and I didn't even want to see the body because it made me too sad. I was really young when I got him and I wasn't up to the responsibility, so he probably didn't have that great of a life either. But I'm sure Saturday had the best life a little bunny could wish for. You sound like a great owner. I'm sure he's in bunny heaven, eating all the grass he can eat and thinking fondly of his former owner. You're in my thoughts.

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  37. This actually broke my heart.
    It’s pretty much how I felt after my cat James died, I’d had him (coinci-mentally) 14 years.
    He was 22.
    I miss him every damn day.

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  38. I saw this linked on reddit. I'm really glad to see others take as much care as I do when one of my animals pass away. It's the little things, you know? I also want you to know I'm crying now because of it and getting ready to go downstairs to snuggle my bunnies. :P I'm sorry for your loss. Much love to you from me and my bunnies.

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  39. I'm a grown ass man sobbing in my cubicle right now. My wife and I have had rabbits since we first started dating. We only raised Flemish Giants and this reminded me of my darling Hannah. She wouldn't eat or drink either and after waiting 5 hours in the ER on the 4th of July she didn't make it. My wife and I lost it and this reminds me of her in every way. I loved that huge yellow thing more than I can describe and I will always miss her.

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  40. this post gives me hope, it sounds silly, I know... but it does.

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  41. I've never owned a rabbit but I have a very cute little dachshund that means the world to me. There have always been dogs in my family and we have lost some of them through the years so I can totally relate to what you have expressed in this beautiful post about Saturday's passing and how you must be feeling these days. I'm deeply sorry for your loss but you must find comfort in the fact that he was very loved and the fact that you showed him and held him close to you in his final moment. You are a very sensitive and sweet person and I just wish there were more people like you in the world. Take care

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  42. I saw this link on tumblr, here http://ivylively.tumblr.com/post/10179564756/saturday-died-in-my-arms-last-night-yesterday-i (the source links back to you, so I'm linking my post :) ) It has over 30,000 notes, which just goes to show you how many people can relate to you and your pain, and how many people out there are praying for you, myself included. We will pray for you and Saturday, and everything will be better, I promise. I am so.. so sorry for your loss.

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  43. goddamn i'm sorry for your loss *bighugs*

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  44. Aw! :( The connection you had with the little dude was powerful and beautiful. He clearly meant a lot to you, so I think it goes without saying that what you did was not silly in any way; it only shows you're full of good emotions and love.


    R.I.P Saturday!

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  45. I saw your post on tumblr, and i cried like a baby. I'm sorry that he passed away :c Hope you get a new rabbit and love him this much ♥ it's so perfect.

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  46. Thank you so much to share this .My rabbit "Tambor" died in my arms too! his teeth clenched & his body went stiff too .That happened LONG time ago,but thanks to you, i remembered how much i love that little cutie .I'm sorry about your lost & i'm sure that Saturday loved the flowers. Xxxx

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  48. Wow, reading this was so emotional. This post must be so indescribable to explain how things are. My eyes were about to tear up, it was so sad. He knew that you loved him very much. Rest in Peace Saturday. You stay strong.

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  49. I'm sure he was very thankful for all your love.
    I am deeply sorry for your loss. And there are no words to put a smile on your face right now.. but remember.. he lived so many happy years and lasted so long. There's nothing you can do to control aging, it's life. Please take every good memory and warm your heart. His friendship was a life experience, a being that helped you being who you are today. :) really big hug

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  50. I know how it feels to loose a bunny that you've grown up with. I too had a bunny that passed at 14 years of age. He was my baby.
    I'm sorry and I want you to know that there's a magical place for little bunnies, like your Saturday. The Rainbow Bridge.


    Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
    When an animal dies that has been
    especially close to someone here,
    that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.

    There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends
    so they can run and play together.
    There is plenty of food, water and sunshine,
    and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old
    are restored to health and vigour; those who were
    hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just
    as we remember them in our dreams
    of days and times gone by.

    The animals are happy and content,
    except for one small thing;
    they each miss someone very special to them,
    who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes
    when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance.
    His bright eyes are intent;
    His eager body quivers.

    Suddenly he begins to run from the group,
    flying over the green grass,
    his legs carrying him faster and faster.
    You have been spotted, and when you and your
    special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous
    reunion, never to be parted again.

    The happy kisses rain upon your face;
    your hands again caress the beloved head,
    and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet,
    so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

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  51. Hi, I'm Kim, and artist in NY. I don't know where you are. I just checked your age. Wanted to tell you your post really touched me deeply, I cried a good cry over it because of your incredible sweetness and overwhelming love and respect for your good friend.

    But, that's not why I'm writing. I wanted to tell you your photographs are very very good. Keep going.

    xo
    Kim

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  52. Oh no, I am so sorry :( I randomly came upon this post, and it drew so much emotion out of me. Your instinctive need to nurture your bunny isn't stupid, nor is feeling so profoundly saddened by his death. This is a really beautiful and touching way to memorialize a friend, and to compel random strangers like myself to take a moment to savor what they have, before it's gone. I am terribly sad for you and for Saturday, but I am glad you shared this with the world. I really hope you feel better, my heart is hurting for you. My pets are my best friends, too. <3 RIP Saturday

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  53. Last year my guinea pig died while I held her. It was such a strange day and I still keep photos of her up in my room.

    You don't sound silly at all. 14 years? That's insane! I only had Latte for 7, but I think that's long for a guinea pig.

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  54. I'm sorry, he looked like a nice fellow. Lovely pictures

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  55. I read this and by the second line I was crying. I also had a cat for 14 years and i'm 19. I have no siblings and had a rough childhood so she was the only person I could talk to. I was so attached to her. She got sick out of nowhere. It was like one day she just started acting differently. Like she was in a lot of pain. We took her to the vet and nobody thought it would be a life or death situation. They said she had arthritis in her hips. The medicine made her sick and eventually she refused to eat at all. She wasn't walking and she dragged her body around with her front legs. I had been in Italy for two weeks on a choral concert tour and when I returned the first thing I asked was where's Kitty? And my parents got quiet. My mom looked sad. And I just started wailing and asking why? It was literally like the end of the world. I'm still not over it. And I'm crying as I write this! I feel for you so much. I think what you did for Saturday was beautiful. I know you might feel like waiting, but you might want to think about getting another animal! It helped me so much. I've had my little kitty for 3 years and I love her and appreciate her so much. She changed my life and it sounds sooo lame ... but it's true. I wish you happiness and peace of mind <3 <3 <3

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  56. This made me cry.
    I have a rabbit named Shelly and he is a rebellious asshole but he is MY rebellious asshole and he was the first thing I bought with my first pay cheque from my first job at KFC.
    Memories.

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  57. i lost my dog a little over a year ago and i still can't get over it. i think of her every single night. i've loved that animal with all my heart and she stayed with me 16 beautiful years. hopefully she's playing with saturday right now :)

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  58. my rabbit died two weeks ago today, and this is literally the saddest thing ever. he was only six and his name was hunter. this post made me bawl.

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  59. I'm so sorry about your loss . It brings me back to my bunny & when he took his trip to the rainbow bridge . I cried for weeks thinking about how unfair it was for him to be taken away from me so early ( he wasn't even 1 , he died from a heart attack in his sleep . He was also the runt of the litter & almost died at birth but my grandma saved him . )
    but then I realized it was time for him to go. For some reason heaven needed him & from then on I can't say everything was easier , but surely & slowly it did . I'm crying right now just thinking about it . ): My condolences to you . It does get easier .. <3

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  60. i can't even breathe right now because i'm sobbing so much.. i curled up right right after reading your dedication for Saturday and the photo. i'm shaking right now and i'm still crying. i'm so sorry. i know this is an old post of yours (from 2011), but i've just stumbled upon this photo on Tumblr (it's got over 25k notes btw), and i just hope you feel better by now.

    i had a bunny for about a month a few years ago and my parents and i were not speaking because of my behavior at school, we were barely considered a family by that point. and this bunny, she saved us. she was only around for three months, but i had never had such an incredible pet. i mean she united all of us, and my dad who i had never seen crying in my life, was sobbing hysterically on his knees shouting 'what did we do wrong..' just as the comment also written in this post mentions. it was heartbreaking. i was so empty inside (i have no siblings) so i immediately begged my parents to get a new bunny a few weeks later because i felt so weak. i needed a bunny to fill her void. THAT bunny has been with us for nearly three years and i love her so much. i've just picked her up and am cuddling with her as i'm writing this. god.. this is such an amazing post. i still haven't stopped crying and its been well over 10 minutes of me writing this (i type pretty slow).

    beautiful photos. RIP SATURDAY. so much love i'm sending to him right now.

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  61. I found this through tumblr. It made me tear up. What you did was very sweet and not stupid at all. I think in his little rabbit brain he appreciated it and thought the flowers were pretty. I'm very sorry for your loss.

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  62. AW omg i am so sorry for your loss, rip saturday <3

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  63. this is exactly what i'll do with my dog Belle. it isnt stupid that you loved your rabbit. you grew up with him, and you gave him a beautiful last day and burial. and this post in wonderful. his memory will live on and it will be enhanced by the glory you have written about him.

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  64. Im sorry for your loss. This is so touching and made me cry because I Know how you feel. To have a pet die in your arms it is hurtful. Deep down know that Saturday loved you and that it is gratefull for making his life and his heart shine. <3

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  65. RIP Saturday :'((( This is so sad. Your little casket for him was perfect though. Your last day with him seemed perfect. I'm sure he felt happy before he left the world. I know he felt loved -- that's for sure.

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  66. This made me cry.. My bunny died in the WORST way possible.
    I always used to let my bunny (Reagan) outside for a litle while in my backyard. He actef like a puppy (; i gave him a half a carrot every mornig before school, he used to jump in my bed while i was sleeping, he used to wait by the backyard door to go outside, and wpuld awlways playing with my dogs. I had him since he was a few weeks old <3. One day, i spentthe night at a friends house, and the first thing i did when i got back was look in his cage.i always left the cage open so he can feel free..butwhen i saw he wasnt in there, i figured he was around the house. I went lookimg for him but never found him. I got reaaally nervous. Eventually, i found out clues as to what happened. I looked in my backyard... And found his fur. Scattered all over the entire backyard. I was crying hysterically. I had realized what happened. My bunny..best friend had been torn to parts and eaten by a falcon that had been hovering my house. That was the single WORST day of my entire life. I lost my best friend. R.I.P. Reagan <3

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  67. I’m really sorry your rabbit died. I’ve had 5 rabbits, 4 of them have passed. It’s very hard to lose them. The most recent loss, Piggy, died the day before Thanksgiving last year. She’d been acting odd all day, and she wouldn’t eat or drink, and she was breathing really heavily. I went out for a walk while my mom was cooking, and Piggy came flying out of her house. One sharp gasp, and she fell over and died. This is probably going to sound stupid, but I don’t care. Piggy waited for me to leave. She knew I didn’t want to see her die. She was such a funny rabbit, she loved to eat, and she would cuddle for hours. She even knew the word “pretty”, I swear…Her ears always perked up when you said the word “pretty”. I miss her very much.

    I know my story probably doesn’t make things any better, but you’re not alone.

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  68. I don't think Saturday could have had a better human. I congratulate you for giving him - and sharing with him - a great life.

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  69. I found your story about Saturday on tumblr that someone else reblogged and now i can't stop crying! lol.. not your fault, but its just really beautiful.

    awwww :’( this is so sad and so sweet. You're a really sweet bun bun mommy and he lived a long time too! he didn’t want to leave his best friend. you made his last day memorable and you gave him the right kind of burial. makes me cry and think of my dog and ferrets that have died :(

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  70. It doesn't sound sentimental or weird at all, because my bunny is my best friend too. I only have him a year, but everywhere i go, he goes, and the other way around. I couldn't handle it if he would die so soon (after a year). Beautiful photographs, love.
    Losing an animal can be as painful as losing any other friend, even if that sounds weird.
    Look at me, i'm sentimental too. :D
    I hope you are alright now.

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  71. Same as everyone else, I saw his pic on tumblr ....I'm crying and my throat is so knotted up, I can't even speak, because I know how hard it is to say goodbye to your best friend, literally a better companion than any human could ever really be! I believe the worst part is trying to adjust afterwards to all the routines you are used to doing regarding your animal friend (like, for example, even looking down before you shuffle your feet underneath the desk, so as not to accidentally kick them! - things like that keep the pain of losing them fresh in your mind). I think Saturday knew how much he was loved, this is certain. Lucky for him that he had such a wonderful human! <3 sending love and hugs your way

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  72. I cried for a day straight. i send you lots of love, and it's not dumb at all. It just means you have a heart. I love you and Saturday, babe.

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  73. I teared a bit reading this. I'm sure his bunny self loved the walk and the flowers.

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  74. Everyone who have owned or had the privilege to grow up with an animal they've cared for have gone through what you have gone through. You are not alone and you gave that bunny the best end he could have had. A warm embrace, not having to die alone and afraid. I've been there, many times and fuck, I'm a better, more stable person for it. Death can be scary and death can be soothing. Thank you for existing!

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  75. You are an amazing wonderful loving human being and proud to share the same time space with you, I love you.....

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  76. Im so sorry about your loss. But what you did for him was beautiful. I'm sure he will never forget you, and he'll be watching over you from bunny heaven. <3 This post made me tear up, I can definitely relate to this. And i think that you are an amazing person for being there for him. Much love and stay strong.

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  77. I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing, even though it must have been hard. I lost my kitty this week and it's excruciating. You really DO feel the loss of anything that leaves your life, especially if it's been there for ages. Wishing you the best.

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  78. my favorite post of all time.

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  79. you broke my fucking heart. I was ok till I read this. So long, bunny.

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  80. I'm so sorry about your rabbit. I recently lost my dog a few months ago when he was hit by a car and I cried for days. We had him for a very long time so I know exactly how you feel. I bet he's having so much fun in bunny heaven right now. My prayers are with you and your family. Rest in peace, Saturday!

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  81. i'm sorry about your rabbit... i just lost mine and he's 5 years old and the first bunny that i ever had.

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  82. I AM CRYING. this is so sad but i want you to know it's okay to miss someone (like a bunny). he will always be missed <3

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  83. I used to have a rabit too,but he didnt lived as long as yours,not even close,only a year and a half,before that I had anther one too,but she lived only 6 months.When they died i cried a lot,I loved them deeply,and every time a talk about them,every one stares at me like saying¨its only a rabbit,its not even a dog¨,but I dont care,I know they loved me too,I could notice that,and they both be forever in my heart

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  84. I am so sorry for your loss Olivia Bee, I know how painful it is to lose a life long companion
    *hugs you and cries with you*

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  85. As sad as this is, it's also extremely uplifting. I'm glad that you two were able to spend such a memorable final day together and from just this I can tell that you're an extraordinary individual. I'm sorry for your loss, but I thank you for sharing.

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  86. With loss comes the real understanding of love. Sorry for your loss, all the best.

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  87. I know how it feels to lose your little pet. My guinea pig died one and a half year ago and I cried every night before I fell asleep, exhausted. *hug*

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  88. i dont know how long ago this was posted or who you are but i own 2 rabbits they are on year 2 and im so scared of losing them...this story really broke my heart and it didnt even happen to me..im crying while typing this and probably will be for the rest of the night...so for here on ill show my bunnies what life is really about and make them the happiest creatures alive

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  89. When my first pet died, my first Bunny - Percy - I knew, just like you did, that it was going to happen :( He was far too young and it was an accident that I blame myself for every time I think of him. He had a burial in my garden with MGMT playing because I bought that CD on the day I got him. Thanks for posting your blog post because it made me cry a whole lot and reminded me of him and made me miss my new bunnies a whole lot. I live quite far away from them at the minute and they're being looked after well by my parents. But I relate to your pain and wanted you to know that your bunny lived longer than any bunny I've ever known so he must have been absolutely full to the brim of love and affection <3 Thank you for sharing, love Briony, Ernie and Domino xxxx

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  90. I know how you feel. I remember first reading this post on Tumblr, and feeling blessed that my bunny would have many more nice years to come. But yesterday at 1:30 in the morning, she passed away unexpectedly at 3 years old. I was asleep by 1:30 and my mom found her, and I only found out once I got home and saw her cage all cleared out. Even then, I didn't want to believe it. It sounds a bit stupid but I loved her so much and I wish I'd had some time to say good bye to her. I wish I could have given her the last hours you gave Saturday. But instead, I cradled her like a baby then put her back in her cage. I never got to see her dead body, and I'm not sure if that's for the better. I wish I could have buried her. It all seems so surreal. I know 3 years is a relatively short amount of time, but I can't stand it. I can't stand waking up in the morning and not seeing her move around rambunctiously. I can't stand coming home and not making jokes about her and holding her like a baby. I can't stand the empty space where her cage used to be. It's too empty. I just hope there's a nice afterlife, and there will be Chopin's nocturnes playing all the time, and lots of bananas for her to eat. I miss her so much. It's really killing me.

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  91. I'm so sorry for your little friend... may he rest in peace. It's always hard to lose a 4 legged fuzzy friend. </3

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  92. This just made me BAWL… I already know how it feels. My dog that I’ve had since I was 4 and I’m almost 17, is going to kill me when she leaves me. Also my cat is 9 years old, so he has a few more years but I know he’ll be sad as well; they together 24/7. Whitney, my dog is my bestfriend. I tell her things, I talk to her and I treat her and my cat JUST like family. I hope she makes till at least after I graduate highschool, or else I’ll be an emotional wreck. I pray and pray that she makes it longer than she’s supposed to. I know she can understand how I feel, because when I went through a bad breakup last March I shut and locked my bedroom door, and I was crying loud or anything like screaming, but shes old and has a bad shoulder and so walked all the way up the stairs and laid at my bedroom door whining to get in. I’m sorry for your loss, and I’m here to talk. I’m not ready for my pets to leave:/

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  93. genuinely can't stop crying even though this was 2 years ago, such a beautiful rabbit

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  94. I saw this on Tumblr, and I wanted to contact the author of this beautiful but sad post. I'm glad I'm able to say something on here, though. I just wanted to say how people like you are very rare. It shows that you loved Saturday wholeheartedly. Sometimes the people we truly love aren't always people. It doesn't matter if they're pets or if they're humans, we all love someone in our lives wholeheartedly.

    Seeing as how this was 2 years ago, I know you probably won't like to see a comment reminding you of it. But you have probably started slowly healing from this loss. I hope that you are well and I know that anywhere our loved ones who, human or not, they're always just a thought away. Saturday I believe, will always be with you. I wish you continue being the sensible and great person you are towards the people and pets in your life.

    Love ~

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  95. Olivia's papa here. A final note for anybody who is still following this. I postponed doing anything about Saturday's home, a sweet old hutch Olivia and I made out of salvaged wood, for a long time, mostly because I have missed him, but also because I knew that dismantling the hutch would hurt. Well, I finally did it, and I took the wood camping to burn. As it was burning, it smelled very Saturdayish, and it really took me back.

    We are as we are because of our memories, and I have some great memories of that rabbit. I remember when Olivia picked him out when she was 3 years old. The rest of his litter cowered, but he stuck his nose out to say hi, and I gladly paid $5 for him. She named him Saturday because that was her favorite day, since that was our day together. Olivia used to take him on 'hops' around the neighborhood on a little leash and harness. We loved to let him roam the yard at dusk for a little snack. Now, I fear I may sound a little silly, but I still miss him, and I still think about him every time I pull a weed. Little guy was a dandelion eating machine. Rest in peace, indeed, Saturday. You are remembered and loved.

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